Soon

I have not yet reached the painting stage of my organized life.  The new crinkle, husband care, has taken over and until  that resolves or I can't move no art will happen. The earliest window is possibly September when a knee replacement will definitely slow me down enough to hold a brush. And so I dream of cerulean blue, painters gray, butter yellow, and an empty canvas......and my heart yearns and my spirit dims until then...

A year of firsts

The way 2013 started should of said to me armor up Princess and grab a life raft because you're in for the ride of your life. As if loosing a child, sustaining a brain injury causing early retirement and watching the love of your life fight a life changing battle with cancer wasn't enough of a ride for one life. This year so far has provided me with more new experiences then a twenty year old college graduate on a walkabout the world. I realize that you single parents have being doing these things  with the ease of a contortionist turning a cartwheel, it is all new to me a senior in a conventional man on top marriage. To date the last 5 months have taught me to handle house maintenance, ie: install new thermostat, fix washer belt, turn on and regulate hot water tank and outside irrigation and adapt furniture height with a do it yourself book and tools. I have had to learn about house insurance, car insurance, glass insurance, completed both our tax forms and managed to get us both refunds and not pay H and R the usual $500.00 fee. I have muddled through Blue Cross Claims and sold horse equipment and a car. All this was done while recovering from a total shoulder replacement and providing all the care needs for a newly paralyzed very sick spouse. I have been a nurse, pharmacist, mechanic, plumber, carpenter, electrician, gardener, furniture mover and declutterer of more shit then anyone but immediate family can imagine. I am tired......I need a rest......and that is why I have planned a total knee replacement in September......simply for the R and R.......it is the best idea have. Does anyone else have something better to offer?

New title Furniture Builder

Finally the Italian Leather  furniture is upstairs and the soon to be sold French Provincial down. New job is to build risers for the leather stuff....it is pretty low and painfully low for us knee challenged folk. Off to Home Depot tomorrow to get advise and supplies.....yahoo get to use power tools.

Mother Love

B

To say I miss you seems  so small because the unconditional love you gave me has never been given by any other. I really wish you were here now to guide me with your gentle wisdom. Missing you my mommy.

Blind Faith

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Exen7FC6q1c&sns=em 
Oh to have such a friend,

Struggles of a mean person

We mean people are misunderstood. Is it meanness when motivating, educating, and directing a particularly misguided person or is it Public Service? Thoughts?

Plans

I Need to keep very busy this week. My favorite grandson is graduating and because of recent events I cannot go. But man did I try to get there every which way possible. Lots of tears this week, afterall I delivered the little baby boy and have been there for band concerts, Kiwanis music festivals, his return from far off places and never missed a birthday. It's been a great trip Morgan, thanks for all the great memories. You are a rocket of possibility.....life is yours, all yours, keep me posted .