Beach Day

So happy... today. I'm off to the beach with a friend....Armed with flotation devices, water shoes, shade chairs, egg salad sandwiches, watermelon and refreshments  and you Madame sunshine. If it's going to be hot, I'm going to be floating in the cool blue....no more stinking fan for me. Come on ....everyone is welcome.

Oy....Please give me some space

It's hot here.....beyond hot, it's 36-42 C....that's hell like temperatures agreed? WTH is wrong with you people who continue to hug me when saying hello or goodbye.....I am damp, cranky and do not want my flesh pressed but you continue. I carry  damp washcloth in a plastic bag in my purse, extra deodorant, and scented body lotion. In my car is a towel, bathing suit and ice water....I am doing more than my part to stay cool. PEOPLE!....Give me some space....PLEASE

Living the heat

Dentist chair was sticky, car was like a toaster oven, house could incubate eggs for hatching, dinner was a delusion of someone's imagination and sleep was impossible until wee hours of the morning. We scared each other over and over as naked and sporting a damp towel we crept around the dark house looking for the cool.......AC repair is underway....the dude has ordered the part, a motor and will pick it up today. Sadly it is a 2 man repair so presently meditating to get into my peacefull , cool place Good news the AC will be fixed by the weekend heat surge..w.expected highs in  the 40.

Happenings and not

These last 10 days have raced past me as does any time I am lucky enough to spend with the best daughter in all the world. Things that were supposed to happen didn't and others did causing pause for much anxious wondering about my near future. Today I am still somewhat in shock about the lack of safety net the medical system has for folks like myself and very afraid for the future. Seeing my other lifeline drive away early this am, blonde puppy and perfect grands sleepy in their seats, while she drove the bright yellow car made me think that the sunshine of my life was leaving just as I saw it come into my life 10 days ago and again felt the anxiety return as my safety net pulled out of the driveway. Life happens as the Universe dictates. My challenge is to enjoy the ride and learn from each day....it is just so damn hard sometimes.

The ups and downs of motherhood

Last Saturday I was full of joy....my girl and her chicklets were here for a WHOLE week. My world was so full I could not breath, only gaze at them endlessly in wonder that they would leave their Dad/love and busy fun lives to spend a week with us, the Rents. In a blink the daily beach jaunts,the,dog walks,the movies,birthday celebrations,card games made my  life better ....then today they all had to return to their lives, friends, jobs and lonely dad. So... I put on my game face, waved goodbye got promices of safe driving but knew they did not realize they were my life and my life was so much less now that they were gone....

Something about him is sooooooo......